An Update After A Long Time

Hello everyone,

I am sorry that I have been neglecting my blog but my life has been like a roller-coaster.
I have been having good and bad days. Recently in August I turned 18 so I was discharged from CAMHS because they don't go up to 18 but they have referred me to the AMHS so hopefully I should be accepted to the adult team where I can get support because my self harm has become worse again because I felt so down when I left CAMHS as they have been my life saver since the age of 14 so I felt like I have lost my support network. 

On a more positive note I have been helping my friend who also has mental health needs, so I have been helping her because my psychiatrist said it would help me, whatever strategies I tell my friend to do e.g. listen to music instead of self harming- the strategies which I tell my friend to use my psychiatrist said I should use them. 

I hope to update my blog more often.

Love From Meera xx

Such A Long Time

Hello everyone, 

I know I have been neglecting my blog which I am sorry about. The last few months have been full of ups and downs. Yesterday was the worst as an adult who I know from a group I go to said to me "Oh teenagers shouldn't be depressed, you have nothing to be depressed about." The adult then started asking me oh how did you get depressed and kept on asking me till I answered him, this made me end up having some really bad flashbacks- I could see the abusive emails so clearly in my head which I had when I was in Year 11. 

Apart from yesterday I have had a good start to May and hope it will carry on like that. 
Have a lovely day enjoying the sunny weather and I will try to update later in the week. 

Love From Meera xx

Updating after a very long time

Hello everyone,

Sorry I havent updated this for quite a few months. I have had a rough couple of months been purging alot to get rid of all the bad thoughts and emotions. Its been a roller-coaster been overdosing and my mood has been very low most of the time..

I have tried to listen to music to distract myself, Also I brought myself a pack of loom bands to make when I am having the urges to self harm or purge which is kind of helping. 

Love From Meera xx

"Let your smile change the world. Don't let the world change your smile." 

Finally spoke to her

Hello everyone, 

I am so happy after months of trying to find her number I managed to find my old form tutor's number. I rang her up and she was so pleased to hear from me. I am so glad because I have her phone number and her email address now.

She helped me so much in year 11 that I can't thank her enough. I am just so pleased that my support network is full again.

Remember a support network is so useful during the ups and downs of depression.

Love from MEERA xx

1st March =

Hello everyone,

Sorry for not posting for quite a while but I had such a rough time as my mood was very low. Also I have been extremely tired to the point where I would sleep throughout the  whole day and night.

Well today is the 1st March which means it is Self Injury Awareness Day! So today people normally wear orange if they are supporting SIAD. Today I would like each and everyone of you to take a few minutes of your time to pray for all the people who Self Harm to get better.

Love from MEERA xx 

"Put others before yourself"

Feelings- Too Many

Hey everyone ,

I have too many thoughts and feelings in my head. I feel like I will end up exploding. I can't get to sleep because of too many thoughts in my head to think about. I think I will listen to my music and go on to RecoverYourLife to talk to my friends. Have a great sleep. I bid you all a good night.

Love from MEERA xx

First Anniversary

Hello everyone,


I tried doing something nice on my anniversary (9th January 2014) by being with my friends at college which was good. Then just as I thought that the anniversary was going so well, I brought a box of tablets from the shop. So  annoyed the voices kept persuading me to buy it and that I gave in to the voices. I am such a failure.


Love From Meera xx


"Know that I will hold you when the sky is falling"